Somebody that I used to know

Dear Somebody that I used to know,

I thought we were best friends.
We acted like best friends act.
We hung out like best friends hang out. 
We had fun, went to movies, got into trouble. 
We did almost everything together.

Then one day I woke up.
And I couldn't find you. 
You had found other friends.
You left me out in the cold.
I tried to find you.
I looked everywhere. 
But you can't find someone that doesn't want to be found.

One day you came back.
You needed help.
I was there for you.
I helped you.
I thought things would be different.
I went to sleep with hopes for a new day.

Then I woke again.
And I couldn't find you.
You had left again.
You said I was being selfish.
You said that you had problems.
You said they were more important than me.

I went to sleep again.
With a heavy heart.
I thought it was me.
I thought I could be better.
I thought I could give more of myself.

Then one day I really woke up.
I realized that you were treating me like a doormat.
I realized you only wanted me when you needed something.
I realized that I had been a great friend.
I had given my 100 percent.

Where were you?
You were with yourself.
You were with the person you loved the most.
You were with your one true love.
And I realized that I would never matter.
I would never be more than a number on your Facebook account.
I was only your friend for convenience. 

I am sorry for being an awesome friend.
I am sorry for always being there.
I am sorry for being passionate about our friendship.
I just thought that is what friendship was.
Being there, through thick and thin...

So I am letting you go with this letter.
I will one day try to forgive.
I will one day try to open myself up again.
But not to you. 
Never again.  


"If you let people treat you like a doormat, you'll be quite forgotten in the end." Proverbs 29:21

"Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows your, or makes you happy. If you aren't being treated with love and respect, check your price tag. Maybe you've marked yourself down. It's YOU who tells people what your worth is. Get off of the clearance rack and get behind the glass where they keep the valuables." I deserve better than what you have ever given me.