I mean I don't know how much more of this I can take. I came out to California because I thought this was God's will and everything came into place. Then we ran out of money and couldn't afford stuff anymore. So we moved back. I was stuck at Chick-fil-A for a long time. I hated it. It was miserable. Then we had to live with my parents and I had to work at a crappy paraprofessional job. Then luckily I did get a fantastic job at CASA, but I couldn't finish this degree that God wanted me to get in Louisiana without losing $30,000 and all the hours I accumulated vanished. So I had to come back out here to California, but that couldn't be easy could it. I had to live out here by myself for almost an entire year. And now I don't even like counseling very much. I have become less empathetic about people's problems and my biggest strength has vanished into thin air. People annoy me and just need to get over it. I don't even like doing this anymore. And now, after I decide to give up on everything and I think that we are going to get a house. Finally a step in the right direction and poof! We can't afford a $61000 house when we both have masters degree. What the crap? I can't get a job b/c the degree I tried to get in California doesn't match Louisiana standards. I can't stay in California because the economy has gone to crap.
So now I have a masters, Jeffrey has a masters, and we will be living with my parents in a room in Calhoun, LA with a baby whom my dogs hate. I will have to work at Chick-Fil-A which is really ridiculous.
I have no dreams or aspirations anymore because in all reality it doesn't matter what I want does it. No it doesn't matter at all. Life Sucks and there is nothing that you can do about it.
